I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

"For you created my inmost being; You knit me in my mother's womb. I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made." - Psalm 139:13,14

My cousin was borrowing a book (Siddhartha by Herman Hesse) of mine a while ago, and he found this 2 year-old bookmark of mine made back during my third year days as our Chemistry entrepreneurial project (paper chromatography used as bookmarks). It contained this verse (Psalm 139:13,14), and upon reading it, I remembered how great the God I am serving is.

God made each of us differently, yet the same. Some might excel more than the others, but God has always designed each person able to make a significant mark in his world. Sometimes, I do envy people who are "much more talented" than me. I want to be able to digest all the lessons in class and be able to answer quizzes easily. I want to be better in drawing people and not be stuck drawing chibis (the cute-looking cartoons). I want to play musical instruments effortlessly and have a beautiful singing voice. I want everything.

I have always felt I lack some talent. I feel that I lack discipline and respect too. I'm not the ideal person I want myself to be. God wants to remind me that I am special in my own way, even if I do not see it yet. I am His creation, after all, and He made me so that I can change my world, in my own little way.

He deserves it all

Hello to those who happen to pass by this page, and welcome to this blog. I know I already have a blog, but I have always felt awkward putting a topic such as God in that worldly blog of mine. He deserves better, and that is why I decided to create a new blog, especially for Him.

I do know that I am not spiritually mature. I still go through a lot of times when I do not want to read the Bible because I'm too sleepy, and come to think about it, there are really those times when I want to share more but I do not have anything left to say. I'm not patient too with prayer, and I do admit that I usually fall asleep in the middle. I need a lot of improvements in this lifestyle of mine, and I want to make my spiritual life better every day. The question is, where do I start? I really don't know. I wish I do know.

I'll never give up that's for sure. As Sir Vlad, my economics teacher during high school said, "Success is never final. Failure is never fatal." I'm sure the same goes with my walk with God.